Melinda’s grief spoke volumes to me. I have never–through God’s grace– experienced the suicide of someone I loved, but went through it twice with my son, once when he was only thirteen and one of his best friend’s (also thirteen!) hung himself and a few years later when his old Little League coach and the father of another friend used a shotgun to end his inner pain.
Interestingly enough, when I was diagnose, the psychiatrist said that many of those who have talents or interests in the arts are afflicted and referred me to the writings of Hippocrates on that very subject! This disease has been with us that long!
My prayers for healing go out to Melinda and anyone else out there who has been forced to live with the aftermath of suicide. I pray someone has helped her understand that no amount of research could have enabled her to stop her son if he was determined to end his own life; that’s one of the falacies our society perpetuates, and is perhaps the most diffucult one for survivors to bear. Her son died from a disease, even if it was at his own hand!

Im bipolar 1 and I was recover of my deffect with Drs. help I take my medication every day , I do yoga and meditate every day I do not take alcohol, caffeine. Im a very happy person.
I never have a thought of suicide and Im hiperactive I walk 30 minutes every day I work in the movie business and Im very active person.
I have a lot of friends and Im very positiv

I am very ill physically + have been all my life.For over 21 years I have had Agoraphobia + Social Anxiety Disorder,along with severe depression varying throughout the years.One of my councelors thinks I may be Bipolar also.My daughter,Mira has ADHD,as do my son and I.The doctors think my daughter may be Bipolar also,as well as depressed + some other psychiatric problems. I am on Disability,and have been for over 16 yrs..Our lives are miserable and we barely get by on $623 per month + $140 in AFDC + Food Stamps.We are on Medicaid and our health both physically + mentally continues to grow worse with each passing day,because I’ve been very sick for too long without even close to a third of the medical attention I need for S.L.E. Lupus;Fibromyalgia;Severely unusual allergies;almost no immune system left;Rheumatoid Arthritis;an enlarged heart;C.O.P.D.;poor circulation;I need my knees + hips replaced + the list goes on….. During the course of all my illnesses I have slowly lost my mind and have trouble remembering anything to the point that at age 43 I am pretty much senile!!! My daughter is getting alot of my health problems and we are scared to death!!! I have prayed to God to the point that He has to be tired of hearing from me!!! I get to the point where I give up on God + don’t pray or read my Bible for a while! I have a brother 24 yrs. older than me who has never wanted to be in my life + has always made me feel terrible about myself,and has done the same to my 3 sisters.One of my sisters is Bipolar and has been in + out of Psychiatric hospitals my whole life + has tried to kill herself many times,and she has mentally abused me off + on for years- she is 22 yrs. older than me.One of my sisters is retarded and lives in a Group Home for the Mentally handicapped.She was my only sister at home when I was growing up + she tried to kill me + my parents countless times,because she is also Schitzophrenic- she is 16 yrs. older than me. My other sister,who is 17 yrs. older than me has been physically + mentally abusive to me since 1987.She is the only one of us sisters to have been able to work all of her life,but she too is on anti-depressants like me + my other 2 sisters.She is an Athiest + has cussed my daughter + I out so many times we told her to stay out of our lives!!! The things she has said to us have cut us to our core,and I can’t even repeat the things she’s said to us- THEY’RE SO BAD!!!! My daughter + I have no one to turn to + I’m reaching out + asking for your prayers for us + for God to provide us help,a way out of this terrible situation + a blessed future without all this pain,for pain is all we know!!!!!!! PLEASE PRAY FOR US!!!!!!!

after reading your story, it sounds to me an example of generation curse. Please know that Jesus is bigger than all the sickness your mentioned. Remember that Jesus died for us in the cross to clean us from all our sins. He shed his blood to heal us. (and by his blood we are healed) He is victorious and gave us the power to get well. God is a living God, so when you pray, declare that you are healed in the name of jesus, even if you are feeling pain, declare you healing. Also pray a lot rebuking the generation curse out of your life and it should be broken in the name of Jesus. And most of all have faith and hope.

First I want to say that my prayers go out to each any everyone of you. I too have suffered depression and anxiety disorder for over 10 years. All I can say is put your faith in God. Try not to focus on the negative in your life even though I know and trust me I know, that negative can over power our mind and soul. But try to think on the positve side of things. When I don’t have a penny to my name, because I do live paycheck by paycheck at times, I think about what I do have. I still am blessed with a roof over my head. I have family and friends who love me even though I may feel like the world is against me. I remember the TRUTH. The truth is I will be taken care of. I am being taken care of. God is watching over me and he will never give me what I can’t handle. May God Bless each one of you!!!

It’s all too real, this disabling disiese. And that it is a very read disiese. My father recently stated that mental illness is weakness and lack of character is the cause. I told him I was sorry that he has chosen to help keep the stigma attatched to mental illness and that he is still feeding into the ideas held in the dark ages. My father has diabetes and heart deisise.
My Father refuses to read literature about my illness of bi polar. He has no more than a high school education and feels like he knows all there is to know. It saddens me deeply when I feel discriminated against because I have a deisise brain.
I didn’t choose this illness and I hate the medication side affects and my mood swings. So why on earth would I not be as kind to myself as I would to someone with cancer etc. My deises is real. It affects my life 24/7.
I know this, the day I think I know everything is the day I know nothing at all. We are all to continue learning with an open mind….yes? How do you spell diesese?????

I am a widow , and now I,m left alone with a daughter who is Bipolar. She just had a baby on 07/07/2007, and has yet been able to find a Dr. that takes either her insurance, or is taking new patiance. I pray every morning and I dont know how many times during the day to my Angels, Husband, and to God for help , guidence, and to be honest, it seems to get worse. I ,m trying my best to find and help her with Dr,s, but even in other problems in my life I feel I,m let down by my prayer,s being answered. I will always believe and trust in God,s way, so I dont want to sound like I,m looking for easy ways or easy answers, but Do you think I,m praying wrong? I ask to even push me down the right path, because the paths I,ve taken in the past, have defininalty been the wrong ones. They say that God gives you no more then one can take, but on somedays I would disagree with it. Could you please let me know if I,m praying wrong, or asking for the wrong way. My faith will always be there, but mabey it,s not strong enough. Could you give me some advise on this. It,s bring me doubting myself, and also my health is in question also. Thank YOu. Lisa

Please forgive me for saying this but I thank God I came across this site and found someone like me. I have basically 85%of the things going on in your life which iv’e been an Agoraphobic my whole life. If it wasn’t for me living with my mom and her supporting me, I would have been homeless a long time ago. I pray that God helps you for I personally know what you are going through. No one knows how hard it is to live in fear on top of it to have physical ailments that you cannot control. I will pray for you and your family. God Bless All of You.