Dear God,
I have known you all my life, depended on you, relied on you, and trusted in you. I still do. I read about other people with problems so much larger than mine, I see the pain in my family from the deaths of those too young to the terrible illness of another child. I know that my life has been blessed. I know all of these things, but I can’t seem to let my hurt go. Finding that my husband was having an affair with my best friend has been the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with, and that makes me ashamed. I grieved over the loss of my young nephew, my brother, and my father, but I got over them. I look back at a less than perfect childhood, but I hold no grudges. I pray and worry for my toddler nephew with a critical disease, but it doesn’t control my every thought. Those are things all much worse and much more important than this affair. So why is it that I cannot let this go? My husband has grieved deeply over his mistake. He made no excuses and blames only himself. How may wives have fought to get their husbands back? And mine never wanted to leave, he wants to fight for me, for our marriage. Why can’t I stop the endless tape playing in my head? Why can’t I look to our future and try to start anew? Most importantly, I KNOW that you are in control, so why can’t I trust in you to take care of me and just let this go

I’m kind of in the same boat u r! Some things I can let go of, some I can’t! For instance, I just can’t let go of the fact that my own flesh & blood brother molested me when I was 12 years old! It happened over and over again! I tryed to tell my mother about it! This was her answer- Your brother would not do something like that to you! Still does not believe me, and I’m 55 years old. I know what happened to me, I was there, it was my body that it happened to! There, I said it! I’m “STILL” very highly pissed off about it too!
Thanks for listening
phyllis

What a great idea! I always suggest to my clients that they write “mad” letters to the people that they are mad at, whether past or present, but not send them. Instead, I have them read them to me. However, I think that the idea of writing to God would be so very healing, especially for those things that you’re still traumatized by but not really mad at anyone in particular.
I’m going to post this on my own blog.

Dear God, “Thank you for showing me how to forgive”. A very short story of a couple of 3-4 life-changing hurts in my life: I was molested by a brother also, and I always felt sure my mother knew but he WAS her favorite. This was a hurt that colored my entire life, along with growing up with a severly achoholic father. My hurt, anger, unhappiness showed in every facet of my life. One day (many, many years later) I dropped a glass and said S…, why me? The next day I dropped a bowl, same reaction. One day very soon after that, while getting a glass of water from the fridge dispenser the glass slipped but I caught it. About 15 minutes later, I asked myself why I didn’t say “thank you, I didn’t break the glass”. That day started my road to recovery. Happiness is a choice and I decided to choose happiness. I prayed to be happy…guess what? It wasn’t working but I kept trying. A few years ago a fellow worker did something that hurt me badly. For a year I raged and hated what had happened. I prayed to understand, I prayed to be happy….still not working. After about a year, I began to pray to God to help me forgive. I prayed every single day for this. Guess what? It took a looong time but one day I woke up and the sun was shining right into my life. I gave it all to God and he gave me the happiness I longed for. To me forgiveness is the key. Once I stopped feeling sorry for myself, and prayed earnestly, forgiveness just happened. Helen

I have believed in God all my life and i pray for help dealing with this one issue that has really changed my whole life around.
My father does not speak to me anymore. Growing up he was my hero , the smartest guy I knew and i wanted to be just like him. I worked with him and went into the same field of work he is in.We were buddy’s. He got remarried and he alway told us (my younger sister and brother) that no woman would ever come between him and his children.
Well,HE LIED and betrayed me.He broke the core of my soul. My heart hurts.
I now think if the one and only guy that i look up to doesn’t like me how could anyone else. How can I get through this? i used to make referneces to things we used to do together. Now everything i used to do with him make me sad. It has been 4 years now and i still have tears in my eyes when think of him and i wish I could ask him a question or just talk to him but he does not want to talk to me.
God, why did this happen to me? why do you have to test me like this.
How do I go through life with out the greatest man i know not wanting me around.

To the woman who’s husband cheated with her best friend and is now trying to win her back: First you must let go of the idea that you are bad for not being able to forget the deceit–These were two people that you trusted, that you were vulnarable too –that you shared your like with, the happiness, the sadness and they didn’t care about how this affair would impact you or how you feel, only about themselves..We all know that it takes a moment to put yourself in check and say”wait a minute” if I act on these feelings who am I going to hurt?
Is your husband sad because he was found out? How long did this go on? Life is short and people do make mistakes–but they are mistakes –not long affairs—
I wish you all the best and do your self a favor–you are worth having a wonderful relationship with a wonderful man who will cherish you and appreciate you –he is out there–you have to just be open to him.

Dear Lord,
I use to be so faithful, so true and so understanding of you. I love you with all my heart, but have lost all faith. My mind wants me to follow you again, but my soul doesn’t allow it. I remember sitting at my bedside night after night praying to you, Thanking you for all that you do and asking you to please take me away from my Sexually, Physically, Emotionally, and very ABUSIVE STEPFATHER. But for 11 years I was raped, molested, and beaten, and watched him totally and horribly beat my Mother. I will admitt finally in 1997 when I had the courage to comeforward I stayed with my Father never having to return to that awful home. However, he told me if I ever spoke up my mother would not believe me and she would hate me. How is it that someone that was so faithful in you could have that happen? How is it that my stepfather was right. I MISS MY MOTHER SO MUCH> I LOVE HER AND NEED HER> BUT SHE IS NO LONGER A PART OF MY LIFE> BECAUSE I SPOKE UP>WHY DID EVERYBODY I LOVE HAVE TO BE RIPPED AWAY FROM ME? WHY DO I FEEL AS IF YOU FAILED ME? I Know you do everything for a reason, but I can not seem to move on. All of this anger and misunderstanding is effecting my life terribly. Dear Lord as I have prayed before Please release me from the past.. help me move on Its been 11 years since I have seen My Mother or my sister and brother BECAUSE OF HIM> Dear lord please help me find trust in you again. Help me with faith, Please this will be my final request.
Sincerely Serious,

I believe in God with all my heart and I know we are not suppose to question him but when does life get good for me. I was molested for yrs by my step dad and his brother, he also beat me, then I got married and had a very up and down life, abuse, alcohol and running around. But after a few years the beatings stopped but I have lost him after 23 years to a younger so called friend. He still likes to drink but now he does everything I have tried my best to get him to do with me and my kids. We are now divorced and my so called friends don’t talk to me anymore. Why? What have I done to have to live such a bad life here? I have so much anger built up inside I think I can explode at times. I pray every day for forgiveness and for God to take all this from me. I ask for a better life so that I can make my kids happy. I cry almost every day still and I have a hard time sharing my kids with him and her but I use to cry everyday all the time. I know through God I will get thou this but if you could pray for me and my family please do because I’m so tired of crying and hurting.

I have read that God can handle our anger and frustrations. But why won’t he do something about it. Like many others I have prayed constantly; to no avail. I’ve been starting to question whether there is a God or not. Twenty-two (22) months ago my son’s girlfriend called me early on a Saturday morning. Seems my son didn’t go home that night and she wondered if he was at my place. Six (6) weeks later the local police called me to say my son was arrested because he was on school property with a gun. Since I knew about these incidents my son won’t talk to me. Hw was talking to my brother until about a year ago. Seems my brother emailed my son about something he found out. My son blamed me for telling my brother about it. Something I had no knowledge of until my brother told me what he did. Now my son won’t talk to anyone in the family. There are other problems also which I’ve asked God for help. NEVER getting what I ask for. I feel God doesn’t care about us as He claims to. If He did; a lot of these things would have been taken care of by now.

Dear Friends and Hurting Ones:
When we go through hurt, abuse, neglect and friends doing us wrong, it isn’t God’s fault. God’s purpose for all of us is to love and treat one another as He treats us. God does not cause the deceit and abuse, He exposes it in ways that others can intercede on your behalf. God’s head is turned when sin abounds, not when you cry out to Him.
The story is all too real: My sister and I were sexually molested and raped my her father. I was pregnant before 18 and I was a mental disaster walking around. I tried to die, but death could not find me. I thought my mom knew; and after her husband died, she confessed that there was nothing she could do. She would wake up in the middle of the night and find a gun barrel pointed at her head. Her hell was worse than ours. She could not get protection from the law, they did not intervene in domestic matters. Every moment of her life she was afraid that he would kill everyone, not just her. She almost lost her mind worrying about her family. But God stepped in and changed the whole situation. It would have been easier for us as children to tell the world and be taken out of one hell-hole to be placed into another situation just as bad or even worse.
It may seem like there is no God, but that same God kept your mind sane and allowed you to get past the acidic condition you had to endure. But inspite of all the pain, the anger and suffering, I’ve learned how to pray harder and to be grateful even for the suffering. When I look at my daughters, my grandchildren and my loving husband, I know that I’m stronger and will fight harder to prevent anyone from ever doing these sadistical things to my family.
Do not let your earthly hurt suppress the reality of God keeping you here to be a witness that prayer and being able to forgive the unforgivable things people do to us is an option. Hurt and holding grudges for things past only keeps you in the past. Live this day as if you never encountered these things. I can’t mend a scrambled egg, but I can fill a void when I’m hungry. Jesus is the perfect example of being able to forgive and to help so many.
I will pray for you and you continue to pray for me.

I have been going through so much in my mind. I have been so unhappy.My mother had a stroke that left her whole left side unable
to move at all. We had to put her in a nursing home. I always told her that I would never put her in a home. I thank you lord for helping me to understand that she needs 24 hr care. My family cannot
give her the care that she needs. She is still praising God through it all. It is so easy to praise him when everything is going right in your life. I want to praise you through all the times of my life. I thank you for friends. My friend told me that I was not the same person that she used to know. I have been so unhappy. I looked for the worst in everything. I am taking back what the enemy has stold from me. I am now looking for all the positive in everything that is going on in my life. I am losing my jobs after 10&1/2 years but I thank you right now for the job that you have already lined up for me when the time comes. I know that you are in control of my life. I know that you will always provide for me. I trust you and I praise you.You are much stronger than any problem that I have. Thank you Jesus. I am so glad to be a child of the king! I am glad that you are so faithful. I want to be more faithful to you. I want to follow you and not the world. I don’t understand how people can live without you in their life. I would not be able to make it without my rock. Thank you lord!!

I have read what everyone has written and it may not be as greave as everyone else but i would like to be heard.
Father in heaven everyday i come to you in prayer asking you to kindly bless me with a husband a man to love me, respect me start a home with and most of all one who is god fearing.
FOr the last 7 or more years all the men who have come forth are either married or have galfriends or are living with the mothers of their children and most recently his one of them, and i ask everyday where is that man you have lined up for me for how long must i wait and for how long must i endure all the loneliness?
Father please bless me please i beg you i am at my wits end waiting and hoping please i still have faith and i know you know i sommetimes lose my faith but fight back. Please bless me.
Thank you lord

Dear God,
YOu have have a will and I have a need to follow that will and humbling be still.
I am just tired. You know what is best for me even though I am confused which way to go. I am following you will even though I want and need to go another way.
I have so many questions and they go on without being answered.
You are my light in the darkness, please guide me out of the darkness and show me I am going the right way.
In your name

Well let me start by saying I know I have done alot of sinning in my life, but I really want to do right in my life and I just don’t feel like you (God) are willing to help me. If you only give us what we can handle, you must think I am one strong women!
I struggle with the feelings that there cant be a God, I mean I know he hasnt answered any of my prayers. I really need some answers in my life and the more I try to turn to you the more I feel I get shot down.
How can there be a God with all the suffering in this world, the children dont deserve it. And I feel that me personaly to have done more then enough suffering. I know I have made my choices, the good and the bad, but right now I need some guidance and if sure isnt coming from the one person I have really, honestly asked for it from, You God, if there really is one.
Its like the more I pray the more you laugh in my face, I have had some true believers in God tell me that they feel like God has big plans for me, that I am special, that I am going to change alot of peoples lives for the best, well if Im so “special”, if God has big plans for me, if Im going to change peoples lives, why is it that I have to do so much suffering, hurting, doubting? I am tired!!!!!!
I need a sign that there is a God and I have asked for one many many times, I need something good to happen because I am so tired of all the bad that keeps happening. I really want to beleive that you are out there God, but right now I really am finding it hard to.

Dear God….
I’m so tired of fighting with you…its draining me. I tried so hard to let go of this last year…i asked you to take it away if it wasnt right for me…but then you let it back into my life…and i went with it and now i am hurting so much…so confused as to what to do…
I need a sign Lord, some kind of clarity Lord. I am willing to do your will in the matter…if I should let this go then Lord please show me. I am so tired of being in a constant state of pain and anxiety…Please Lord, I am on my knees, begging you to show me what to do.

Dear god. ..
i honestly feel like i am loseing all faith in you. I dont understand what have a i done to deserve this what am I doing for you to take every thing from me. if you are so gracious and wonder why doesn every one else have it better than me and they dont do as much as I do. I pay thites I pray and give you all the praise and i still suffer more than anyone i know. i have nothing to my name not a house jaob car no family and u still continue to take the little i do have from me. why???????? everything happens for a reason my ass. . .this makes no sence what positive will come from this??? i hardly believe any more that you even hear me that you’re even real i feel like im starting to hate you. you cant love or u cant be real that the onbly reason. thats the only thing that makes sence i need a sign i need somthing because i have no blessings. i rather be dead then be here right now. i have nothing to live for i dont unbdertand anything right now if i could just understand why im going thru all these things if i could see what the outcome of this would be maybe then i wouldnt be so mad at you. i’m a day away from giving up. . .why im begging i will do ANYTHING for a sign that you’re there and real and that you hear me.