A month or so ago, I posted my angry letter to God on a discussion thread at Group Beyond Blue called "Dear God: A Little Venting" (which you can get to by clicking here) and encouraged members to write their own letters. I was taken aback by the intensity and pain and compassion in those letters.
The following posts are the first few from that thread.
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I have been going through so much in my mind. I have been so unhappy.My mother had a stroke that left her whole left side unable
to move at all. We had to put her in a nursing home. I always told her that I would never put her in a home. I thank you lord for helping me to understand that she needs 24 hr care. My family cannot
give her the care that she needs. She is still praising God through it all. It is so easy to praise him when everything is going right in your life. I want to praise you through all the times of my life. I thank you for friends. My friend told me that I was not the same person that she used to know. I have been so unhappy. I looked for the worst in everything. I am taking back what the enemy has stold from me. I am now looking for all the positive in everything that is going on in my life. I am losing my jobs after 10&1/2 years but I thank you right now for the job that you have already lined up for me when the time comes. I know that you are in control of my life. I know that you will always provide for me. I trust you and I praise you.You are much stronger than any problem that I have. Thank you Jesus. I am so glad to be a child of the king! I am glad that you are so faithful. I want to be more faithful to you. I want to follow you and not the world. I don't understand how people can live without you in their life. I would not be able to make it without my rock. Thank you lord!!
I have read what everyone has written and it may not be as greave as everyone else but i would like to be heard.
Father in heaven everyday i come to you in prayer asking you to kindly bless me with a husband a man to love me, respect me start a home with and most of all one who is god fearing.
FOr the last 7 or more years all the men who have come forth are either married or have galfriends or are living with the mothers of their children and most recently his one of them, and i ask everyday where is that man you have lined up for me for how long must i wait and for how long must i endure all the loneliness?
Father please bless me please i beg you i am at my wits end waiting and hoping please i still have faith and i know you know i sommetimes lose my faith but fight back. Please bless me.
Thank you lord
Dear God,
YOu have have a will and I have a need to follow that will and humbling be still.
I am just tired. You know what is best for me even though I am confused which way to go. I am following you will even though I want and need to go another way.
I have so many questions and they go on without being answered.
You are my light in the darkness, please guide me out of the darkness and show me I am going the right way.
In your name
Well let me start by saying I know I have done alot of sinning in my life, but I really want to do right in my life and I just don't feel like you (God) are willing to help me. If you only give us what we can handle, you must think I am one strong women!
I struggle with the feelings that there cant be a God, I mean I know he hasnt answered any of my prayers. I really need some answers in my life and the more I try to turn to you the more I feel I get shot down.
How can there be a God with all the suffering in this world, the children dont deserve it. And I feel that me personaly to have done more then enough suffering. I know I have made my choices, the good and the bad, but right now I need some guidance and if sure isnt coming from the one person I have really, honestly asked for it from, You God, if there really is one.
Its like the more I pray the more you laugh in my face, I have had some true believers in God tell me that they feel like God has big plans for me, that I am special, that I am going to change alot of peoples lives for the best, well if Im so "special", if God has big plans for me, if Im going to change peoples lives, why is it that I have to do so much suffering, hurting, doubting? I am tired!!!!!!
I need a sign that there is a God and I have asked for one many many times, I need something good to happen because I am so tired of all the bad that keeps happening. I really want to beleive that you are out there God, but right now I really am finding it hard to.
Dear God....
I'm so tired of fighting with you...its draining me. I tried so hard to let go of this last year...i asked you to take it away if it wasnt right for me...but then you let it back into my life...and i went with it and now i am hurting so much...so confused as to what to do...
I need a sign Lord, some kind of clarity Lord. I am willing to do your will in the matter...if I should let this go then Lord please show me. I am so tired of being in a constant state of pain and anxiety...Please Lord, I am on my knees, begging you to show me what to do.
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