I really needed this today. I’ve read your blog off and on for a while. Something brought me to it today. When I’ve been wondering for the longest time how to deal with my illness, I knew inside I should give it to God, but I never have. Im first just going to pray for the courage that I can simply give it to Him…. that will be the first step.

I am so glad to read that another person prefers to ‘trust God’ when she knows she has a back up plan, just in case! This made me laugh out loud, as that’s EXACTLY what I am going through, right now. While I’m praying, daily, and asking others to pray with and for me, I feel like I am having a hard time hearing answers, and I’m TIRED OF WAITING, and, like you, issuing deadlines, and ultimatums…
Sometimes I think that having a backup plan, is the pre-answer. I don’t believe that God tortures us by spending sweet time, keeping us waiting for our answers, nor do I believe that we aren’t given all that we need to handle ANY challenge. (I think time is only a “human-thing”, not a “God-thing”, so my deadlines must not mean much. So, today, after reading this, I’m going to sit, and start writing out a plan. Perhaps, that is where my fear will be tackled, and God can be trusted, once more. No more avoidance, no more spinning wheels. If my plan doesn’t work, it wasn’t God’s plan…And that’s that.
Hmmm.

These verses have always been a huge help to me.
” I can do all things through Christ, Who strengthens me. ”
” My Grace is sufficient, for My Power is made perfect in weakness ”
” God is our Refuge and Strength, an ever present help in trouble ”
I will continue to lift you up to the Lord.

Well, if that’s the case then you should waste no more time walking through your neighborhood because here you will find everything you are looking for.

I love you. I truly love and embrace you, for trusting in us human brothers/sisters, to bare your guts and soul, openly/honestly. I share so many of your same thoughts, and think that “getting it out there” is the biggest key to healing. You are such a beautiful, incredible, amazing woman, and it’s obvious to me that you can conquer the shadows of negativity – I pray for things to get easier on your soul – and much light to empower your life. Most importantly: give YOURSELF a break – whether you acknowledge it or not – YOU’VE COME SOOOOOO FAR! And look at how many people you are casting healing light onto……. XO Heather

Theresa, You never cease to amaze me or inspire me! Thank you for caring and sharing your insights and to keep going even when things get rough! It gives me hope!

I can’t agree with Heather more! You are in the hearts and prayers of so many people without even knowing it Therese. Take care and thank you.

Hello and God Bless You, these scriptures will help everyone; read Psalm 23, 91 and 92 Daily, in the Name of Jesus. In the Morning after getting up and in the Evening before going to bed, in the Name of Jesus. If you are in a hurry in the Mornings, get up a little earlier, these scriptures are a great way to start your day, in the Name of Jesus !!! Before all hell breaks loose. At night make sure you cast all your cares upon the Lord before you go to bed in the Name of Jesus, you will sleep better at night. Thank You All and Praise God, Always Thanking Him for what His Son did on the Cross for Us, In Jesus Name. Amen & Amen.

yes i neded a good story ,i am a single mom that has went through a tradgedyi was in a car accident i was hit by three semis four was involved i lost my eight year old daughter,i suffered tramatic brain injury i was tem,paralyized,i had to learn to walk talk and think agin.in a short time ,i didnt even know who i was or who other people was that they said i knew.i am at a point i just want to give up end it .

I subscribe to your blog. I read this story and it reminded me of not to long ago how I was feeling. I was really bad about thinking about dying and how it might happen. I am in counseling and through medication (which I know you said you do not like to rush into to and I totally respect that decision. It is a totally personal decision.), I am %100 percent better. But inspirational stories like the yours, really helps me continue on my road without depression.
You seem very smart, and I know you will get through this. I will pray that you will see the light in a tunnel that seems very dark right now. Keep in there and know that sharing your experiences are helping a lot of people!

While reading this article I heard the LORD say to me TRUST ME. I myself suffer with depression. So yesterday I had a appointment to participate in a research program for new medication for depression. Well, while sitting there waiting, I prayed to the LORD if this is the way I should go to receive the help I needed so much! Well they didn’t accept me. Instead of me feeling more depressed and let down.I chuckled to myself and said OK LORD I TRUST YOU and my trust is in YOU! So reading this just affirms HIS message fou me. Thank you for being HIS instrument.

I found your site by accident and now follow it faithfully. I have suffered from anxiety disorder since the age of 14 and depression for years now. Once I went to my doctor for help and he prescribed Prozac which ultimately led to a suicide attempt. So much for anti depressants for me. I have been to therapist and finally found a really good therapist who is also a Christian therapist which helps since I am a Christian. My doctor who is very familiar with my different issues recently put me on an anti depressant I had never heard of called celexa. Finally, one that seems to be working, doesn’t give me the shakes or make me feel suicidal because in the past few months I had been going through the I wish I were dead feeling as well. I am in a recovery program called Celebrate Recovery which is a 12 step Christ based recovery program that is phenomenal and has kept me sober for 9 months now. I need a program that specifically says that Jesus Christ is my higher power; which is why AA didn’t work. With my therapist, the new medication and my recovery group I am finally coming out of a deep dark hole I fell into when my husband died suddenly and my 17 year old son went off the deep end over his father’s death. I have a long way to go but I finally have hope. Your blogs help so much. It is good to know that there are other people who feel as I do. Thanks

When we give our trust to someone,it’s not going to be 100%,only God desserves 100% trust,faith,hope and love.Bitter experiences of anyone will teach him or her lessons to make his or her judgement wiser,more
discerning of his own destiny.Above all,it’s not a sin not trusting fellowman,it’s a sin to be not trusting and having faith in God.

. I went through 13 years of sexual abuse by ny dad. I am dealing with it on a daily basis. I really believe it made me a stronger person. But there r day’s I can’t leave my house actually month’s and month’s. my doc call’s it agoraphobic I thank GOD on the good day’s and even on the bad!! I wish you all well! Have a good day p.s. I am having surgery thur. 24th ear surg. pray 4 me o.k.

You are a wonderfully gifted and talented person Therese! Remember the Will of God will never take us where the Grace of God will not protect us! He reminds us as the scriputures say “Fear Not for I AM with You”! I know it’s easier said than done but always remember there r others who r suffering way more than we are! It’s been an very interesing year for me you know, recently got divorced, and my whole world turned upside down! Well I know all along God was telling me what he told you “TRUST ME”! I know at first you can’t comprehend but after all those trials all this only make us stronger! I have a 10yr old son so you can just imagine what has gone through his little brilliant mind! I just changed him from a public school to a private one hoping and praying to God our Father that this is our best move for him, so don’t worry girl, like I said some of us have it tougher but we’re still hanging in there because our Creator has a much better plan for us! And those thoughts you have OH I HAD EM in MANY OCCASSIONS and came very very close to dying but again, My Father had a better plan for me and I made the decison to follow the path he enlightened for me! The light at the end of the tunnel, yes it is there so so beautiful waiting for you so shiny and bright! May God our Father Guide and Protect YOU always! Please know that you are in my prayers. God Bless You

Therese–I am so sorry to hear you are struggling with the I wish I were dead thoughts…I went through that some early this year to the point of almost overdosing on pills. My depression is triggered by stress, usually job related, and the “I can’t handle this” thoughts. I can only imagine how those might be more frequent with the pressures of motherhood. I am happy to read that you are a mother, though, because I have often wondered with my depression history if it would be possible to find someone to love me and put up with the possibility of a recurrence and helping me through it, and whether I could ever handle being a mother…nice to know that it is possible.

IM DEALING WITH DEPRESSION AND MARRIED TO A MAN THAT ONLY CARES FOR HESELF I DONT HAVE A PLACE TO GO AND HES A DRUNK AND HES MOUTH GOES DAY IN AND DAY OUT HES VERY STUPOD MAN AND I HATE HIM DEARLY HOW HES DONE ME IN THE PASSED I DO PRAY ALOT AND I DO BELEVE IN GOD AND JESUS

Thank you so much for your post! I’ve found that the suicidal thoughts never really go away completely, as is true any time that we are confronted with death of any form. I find it easier to just trust that everything will come in due time, and God loves me even when I’m sad. If anything, you are very much loved and there are countless people that are now, and will be in the future, glad that you are here. Hugs and God bless!

When you believe with your heart that’s your faith, when you believe in your faith with your mind that’s your belief. when you believe faithfully in yourself, ask and you shall see, that you can get through anything!

Therese, I have been reading your blogs for about a month, and have felt relief, there is another me out there. I am in no way happy that we share these similar emotions, It’s just that I can breathe from a sense of normalcy with a ‘DIAGNOSIS”, that at times leaves us feeling , well i’ll just say, very interesting. I have gone through every conversation with God, feeling abandoned in the worst of it, and so unbelievably grateful, in not that short of a time period later. Your honesty blows me out of the water. The courage it takes to say YOU FEEL LIKE DYING, in real time, I just can’t think of anything I admire more. What I am learning about myself, is this ‘LIVING BREATHING THING’ bipolar that I am living with loves to hide, eating chili fries, with a stained t shirt and greasy hair[partly kidding] and doesn’t like to see the light of day when scared. When I expose it, cut it right down the center, so what! I am a fairly normal disciplined person in real life-who trips out and panics- and needs a GOOD CALMING DOWN, and my thoughts, at times are no different than yours. When chili frie stained t shirt mama comes out, I am like a child. I am beginning to love her. She is truly a deer in the head lights who was never held and loved. She is in survival mode at that moment. trying to stay alive. The chili fries are sometimes a metaphor, the scared child, wanting to know she has worth, even when she is convinced she should not take another breath, she still wants to be held and convinced. I love your words. Your value is immeasurable. my heart is healing by your honesty and feeling less alone. You got my Email if I can ever give you something back. With sincere gratitude and so much love sent your way. Your friend, Clare

you just repeated what my pastor told us in the church last Sunday ago, i knew God is talking to me directly, because he talk to us via Human-beings,. The greatest enemy we have here on earth is the spirit and doubt.
Fear is worst our enemy, and we children of God must shred it out and move forward toward our destinations. We are here for God purpose but Satan and his agent may try to put fear into the mind of the Children of God in order to deny them, their inheritance, we must say NO to FEAR.
Thanks to all of you viewers.
Daniel

Trusting God was a hard lesson for me to learn. I finally surrendered when he continued to prove to me that he was there, watching over me, and had been my whole life. I could count on him to see me through any situation and the most precious thing that he showed me is, that he loved me and would never leave me. I have recently been diagnosed with “seasonal depression” and I’ve been through more than my fair share of life’s ups and downs. There were many times when I felt like why was I even born, and why am I still here. Through it all, God sustained me, and he continues to show me his love and mercy.
I pray that God will keep you in his loving care. And that he shows you that, he is still there for you, and that he will never leave you.

you just repeated what my pastor told us in the church last Sunday ago, i knew God is talking to me directly, because he talk to us via Human-beings,. The greatest enemy we have here on earth is the spirit and doubt.
Fear is worst our enemy, and we children of God must shred it out and move forward toward our destinations. We are here for God purpose but Satan and his agent may try to put fear into the mind of the Children of God in order to deny them, their inheritance, we must say NO to FEAR.
Thanks to all of you viewers.
Daniel

I don’t always read all of my emails. Today
God repeated Hisself. Thank your for sharing.
It comes when really needed. I have been plagued
by depression all of my life. Now at age 68
and single it seems to be getting worse. I have
asked and He said “Be still and know that I am your
God” and asked again.
Today I surrender, will be still and listen to His
Words “Trust Me”
Thank you
laura

Hello all,
I have always been a worry wort! It is so counter productive and worrying changes nothing as The Bible say’s.
About 5 years ago I happened across something called, Letting Go of Control by breadoflife.org ! Oh what peace I have had knowing that even if things do not go as I wanted them to go God is on top of it and that “all things work together for good to thos who love God and are called according to His will” Rom.8:28
Notice that it is His will and not ours!
Fear is not of God.
Our walk can be amazingly exciting if we are willing to let go and let God!
He is for us and who then can be against us?
All things have a reason as I have learned! Especially when it works out differently than I expect!
God bless you all,
wrensma

I received a message about “fear” for the second time today….I also told my partner of a budding relationship that I was “afraid” to surrender to him. (Fear of hurt/disappointment) Hmmmm, I think that my weakness is being brought to light. Guess I better recognize it, conquer it and enjoy the fruits of that labor huh? Thanks for the blog. So so insightful!!!

The spirit of fear and depression is a very familiar spirit to me. Or so I am told. I have struggled with truly trusting God in my life and feel at this point I am very much being tested again. See God will keep the lessons coming until we truly lay it all down! For most people we continue to pick it back up instead of leaving it at the foot of the cross. Right now I am dealing with great stressors in my life but inside I desperately want to just trust God and be done but its hard walking in the spirit and not of the flesh. Walking by faith takes real desire and discipline.
Oh I pray for these strongholds be broken in me.

Wow! Not to be flippant, but Therese, your comments have elicited so many responses in comparison to the 10 responses received after the body image/weight topic of Nov. 10th. Guess weight control isn’t that heavy of a concern–no pun intended.
I don’t think we ever clear all the hurdles of life without having some reversals in thought process. This is the one scripture verse that I’ve held on to through dark thoughts and despair:
“For they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary , they shall walk and not be faint.”

Went to Borders after work yesterday and ordered the book by eileen Flanigan. It sounds like she has a lot of wise information in the book so I am looking forward to getting it; thanks for the info.

Thanks Therese! You are so right. We all needed to hear this today. God Bless you and keep looking up and living in the light. God is there and He is helping each of us.

I HOPE you READ THIS.
I just wanted to tell you a line from a song I wrote a few days back
“When I gave up seeking light, and let my eyes
adjust to the dim…
the sun came rising.
And I saw a new view,
when I purged myself of everything I ever thought I know
and changed
where I was looking.” Lori Engler
So, what we focus on, will eventually manifest, at least for myself.
Have a good restful weekend
lori

No matter what else happens in your life, if you believe God is in control, you will always have your faith, your salvation, and your companionship with Him. The rest are just things and comforts. I think for most of us, there are people out there a lot less comfortable than we are.

Therse. God’s got you here for a specific reason HE does’nt and wont let go of you. Death thoughts are from the enemy. Anything worthwhiled in this world is worth fighting for. Our sanity, our children, Our GOD to uphold his name and to encourage others in their daily walk. Thank you for your wonderful blog’s and insights Love Kim