Why you came to this earth

To AussieCowboy....I reread your post several times, debating if I should respond or not and finally decided that the fact I'm sitting here debating means that I'm supposed to, so here goes....

All too often in life people get stuck in the idea that they "can't" do something because of physical disabilities/limitations. It's this belief that blocks them more so than the physical problems. If you have it in your head that you "can't" because of your heart problems, then you won't even try. But if you can view your heart problems as a speed-bump, an inconvenience, an obstacle to be overcome or gone around, then you can turn your attention to "what you CAN do". Perhaps working the land as a farmer is too big a goal for your heart at this time, but that doesn't mean you can't do something similar on a smaller scale. Try raised-bed gardening where everything is condensed into a small area that won't stress your heart so much. Or build a small green house and grow flowers to share with the local retirement home. Grow plants in pots in your front yard. Basically, find a smaller version of "farming" that you CAN physically manage. Mind over matter, my friend. If you don't mind, it don't matter.

I was born without a left hip socket. Multiple surgeries made it possible for me to walk, but medical errors also resulted in nerve damage. My parents were told I'd be crippled by arthritis by 18. Instead I went on to have a lengthy career training jumping horses. Painful? Yes. I can't even tell you how excruciating it was at times. There were days I had to go up and down stairs on my butt because my hip wouldn't support me. But I found ways to do what I wanted to do. So what if I did it differently than everyone else? The joy of what I was doing by far outweighed the pain of doing it. What I learned about healing horses combined with help and guidance from friends, I learned about kinesiology and "positive visualization" and now I am pain-free and have been completely off all forms of pain and anti-inflammatory medications for nearly 15 years. Current xrays of my hip show IMPROVEMENT and HEALING. I'm 44 now.

My father suffered a serious spinal injury in his job as a construction worker that ended his career permanently. And yet, he built a house for he and my mother. At times crawling on his hands and knees, dragging a 2x4 behind him. It took years to finish the house, but he did it and it's beautiful. It's a 2-story, 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom house, btw.

I know a lot of people who do very little or nothing because they're stuck in this idea that they "can't" until the pain goes away or until some other physical inconvenience is resolved. And of course, nothing gets better, nothing changes, because they're just sitting there waiting for it to get better "so they can". Motion in any direction is better than no motion at all. Find something you CAN do that is a step in the direction you would like to be going, and then do it. The joy of doing it will be good for your heart....

Tap into the strength you acquired from the experience of being an 11yo fending for yourself. Your journey must have been difficult, but you are still here. That means you have a lot of "try" in you. Don't give up now, use the strength and ingenuity that experience gave you.

And I don't mean to sound coarse here but think about it...if you're out working in your garden (or greenhouse) and your heart gives out; you'll die doing what you love. Wouldn't that be better than spending the rest of a longer life feeling angry and resentful about not being able to do what you want to be doing? I can assure you that all that anger and resentment isn't doing your heart any favors...

(((hugs))) I'm cheering for you! :)

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Sending positive energy your direction! (I know it will find you!)