Neale wrote: In our next blog, I would like to comment on some of the Comments to the last blog here, about there being “only one way” for humanity to use Divine help in assisting our world. That topic yesterday drew a slew of responses…and I want to have a chance to digest them
You are such a generous and giving man! The temptation must have been to plunge head first into the heated debate…but your response was so much more graceful…to post a blog offering help to others!
I love it!
And now, in return, I’d like to offer help to you by sharing a discussion we had (in another forum) a while back on a similar theme.
Included in this discussion are some beautiful lyrics to a song called “Together Now” written by Australia’s Iva Davies that reaches right to the heart of “facing changes” in a world where we are being drawn to come together as one…
Global Interfaith Movements
Enjoy!
bhdt
PS. I’d also like to offer this beautiful meditation as a tool to help us cope with this changing world in a graceful and understanding way…
“THE DARKNESS”
“I think of myself as quite a decent person, good-hearted and
respected, with minor sins and failings, until it dawns on me
that the greatest sinners are the ones who sin in ignorance.
I see the well-intentioned damage
“love” inflicts on helpless children…
I see the marks of cruelty
in fervently religious people…
I see fair-minded pharisees
assess the evidence against Jesus,
and consider it their duty to do away with him…
It frightens me
that I may be suffering from the same sickness
of the chief priests and the pharisees:
They were so certain of themselves,
so convinced they were right,
so closed to other viewpoints and to change…
I think of persons whom I know to be like that…
And then I think of me…
The pharisees were given to judging.
People to them were either good or bad.
There was never any good in someone
who their prejudice said was bad…
I think of other people who seem to be like that…
I think of me…
I make a list of “bad” people I know
and wonder if at heart they might not be
far better than I am…
The pharisees were men of establishment.
They feared to rock the boat…
I think of me…
The pharisees loved power.
They would force you to be good for your own sake.
They could not leave you free…
Again I think of me…
Finally the pharisee conformed.
He might see the accused before him as not being guilty
but he lacked the holy daring
to stand up to his peers and speak his mind…
I think, regretfully, of my fear to give offence,
to disagree,
my need to please…
I am no great improvement
on the men who killed the Saviour.
All I can say is, “Lord I am a sinner.
Be merciful to me.”…
I hear him answer gently,
“You are precious to my heart, my child.”
What ever could he mean by that?…
I use his eyes to find out what he sees in me
that, even while he knows my sinfulness,
he says, “You are precious to my heart”…
With those same eyes, I look at “sinners”
- the Hitlers and the Stalins of our times…
I look at people I dislike…reject…
Maybe I need those eyes of his
to bring me to compassion
and save me from the pharisee in me.”
From “Wellsprings – A Book of Spiritual Exercises” by Anthony De Mello (A Catholic Jesuit priest)

Dear Neale;
I’ve been very caught up in my own life the past few weeks. I’ve always been in a constant state of change. While some things remain consistent, there is always a flurry around me. There seems to always be some story to tell. There are illnesses in family and friends, and it seems in some ways I thirst for change. So, I become very aware of flux in my own life.
Still, there is an area that perplexes me. It is where a lot of my resistance to “doing something” comes from. There is an idea that the world must change, and that I don’t disagree with one bit. I have said Gandhi’s phrase many times, “You must be the change that you wish to see.”
Be the change? How? How do I know I’m changing the world? Even if I am, how do I know it’s enough to really help cause a global shift? Also, if I am changing the world, where is the impact? It seems that all I read about, even on blogs, is racism, terrorist attacks, people being trampled to death, and drug busts (not on this blog but a few houses down from Grandma’s during Thanksgiving…well, it gave the cousins something to talk about!)
With all that I read about and see on a day to day basis, how do I know for sure that the world is changing for the better? I welcome Obama’s upcoming presidency with open arms, but how do I know that this is really going to bring about changes on consciousness? I have read a great deal about prophecies dealing with 2012, but do I know for sure that something like this is coming? I drop my change into kettles at stores, pledge to church, and donate when I can…but is that really making a difference or just perpetuating the same problems?
The more problems I read about, the less sure I am of myself or that I am somehow doing enough or even able to orchestrate real change. I think of myself as one of over 7 billion people on this planet, and I simply wonder what must happen next. It is overwhelming in so many ways. How much weight must one carry to be the change? How much time will it take? How much money? How much thought and effort? How many tears? What must be done for real change to take place? Somebody must know, so we are not chasing our tails or running around saying “do something!” without offering any real suggestions or plans.
When dealing with changes in my own life, I can handle it. I can shed tears when need be, fight when need be, love, laugh, give, take, offer, and spend time with those I care about. Still, when thinking on the global scale, thinking of the types of changes needed, I don’t know where to start. I feel overwhelmed, and eventually I throw my hands up and simply admit to not knowing and go back into focusing on myself and my family. It kinda reminds me of that song that came out a few years before I was born, “I’d love to change the world, but I don’t know what to do…so I’ll leave it up to you.” It seems that I’m not alone in that feeling.

I recently bought all three of your books “Conversations with GOD” I am currently reading book 2 and I must say that I am truly inspired by it. It just reconfirms alot of things I feel to be truthful and it made alot of sense. Your books shed alot of light on oneself and the world.

My Dearest Neale,
I am truly thankful that most recently the writings have taken a beautiful turn.
I do wish I could be at this seminar, however the changes are happening so swiftly that I do not believe I’ll have the opportunity to attend. I remember reading in one of the books that the degree of resistance that comes with the approaching shift, is signifying your desire for the shift. Working through the difficulties has been an amazing experience. And the resistance urging me to move forward as been worth every bit of effort put forward. “When everything changes, change everything” is the absolute perfect way to describe it.
“I don’t know where to start. I feel overwhelmed, and eventually I throw my hands up and simply admit to not knowing and go back into focusing on myself and my family. It kinda reminds me of that song that came out a few years before I was born, “I’d love to change the world, but I don’t know what to do…so I’ll leave it up to you.” It seems that I’m not alone in that feeling.”
I am at the point of seeing beyond how I would like to contribute to changing the world – purely helping other people. I know exactly what I want, and will, do. The shift in our personal life is almost complete, and it is like there is this wide open door that I am days from finally crossing the threshold of . On the other side is purely works of art and a deep process of creation to go through. An opportunity that I have been yearning for since the age of 13 when first receiving my piano. While always a very creative person, I was writing music at the age of 13 even before my piano lessons. In one year I skipped 6 levels of lessons and my own music had become far more advanced because of learning theory. Shortly after that year, the piano was taken away from me. Ever since it has been like I have been fighting to get to a point to finally have the room in my life to create everything that I know is inside of me; from music, to painting to writing.
The greatest challenges I see coming in the near future in changing everything, is really bringing to life all of the fine details I hear in my head. I hope not to struggle for years with it because it fully would be a waste compared to what I will do after the compositions; the organization that will be built through my efforts wherein a majority of the profit, nearly 90 % (I would like to fully take care of my husband first as he has worked hard all of his life, and I would like to free him) will build a foundation to help others, as I have dreamt someone would have helped me during this process. No one has made such a thing yet, so I suppose it is my opportunity to begin such.
I just wish my physical body could connect with my head and soul a little more. I wish my physical body could be as clear as my heart and mind.
How do you get there?
love always

Its been a long time coming, but I know that change is gonna come…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4I–3tFzyLI

Dear ‘understand’,
Have you ever seen the movie “ONCE”? If you’re a musician and an artist, you’d love it. Actually I would like to recommend this little indie film to everyone. You have to watch it to see why. Here is a little video of one of the songs from it, that I sing as an anthem for my life…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoSL_qayMCc

“Your Name, I would humbly suggest that you were coming from a place of “expectations” and not “intentions”.”
There is a limit to intentions. OK, say we can go back in time to November third. Say I say to you, “Make sure Barack Obama gets elected President.”
You can’t do that, can you, no matter how much you “intend” it. I am asking you to accept responsibility where you have no control.
In a lot of this kind of thought, it seems we are asked to assume responsibility for things over which we have no control. If you don’t have a realistic sense of how much you actually can control, it’s called “delusions of grandeur,” and you may be mentally ill.
Which is why you shouldn’t have expectations or intentions for things you can’t control. Where God is in control, your job is to accept. That’s all.

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I keep trying to post something, and it doesn’t seem to post. One more try:
“Is this true? Can this be what is so? Perhaps it IS “not for us to tell” God “what to do” – but is it okay to ASK? Is it okay to pray? And is it okay to pray with absolute faith that our prayers will be answered? I wonder if the person who posted the item above would be willing to answer these questions – and whoever else of you would like to as well. I am needing to be enlightened on this subject.”
Hi, I’m back. You asked for more thoughts, so I’m going to try to break these questions up one at a time.
Of course it’s OK to ask. No harm in asking for something, right? (Although if I remember correctly, asking is the best way not to get an outcome, because it is a statement to the Universe that you don’t have the outcome. And the Universe is like a mimeograph machine, which gives you back your thought about it…so there ya go.) No, I can’t imagine that God/the Universe is going to be “unhappy” with us, if such a thing were possible, for praying or asking for a desired outcome. If you can pray with absolute faith that your prayers will be answered, so much the better for you…because of the Great Mimeograph Machine principle I remember reading about in the original CWG trilogy.
However, the best I can do with this often produces outcomes that are wildly different from what was preferred/desired/chosen. Sometimes this occurs because we have limited control of all the factors influencing the outcome. But Somebody does have control of them, and that Somebody, who has in fact answered the prayer, just has other plans. Sometimes things are just supposed to be the way they are, and you have a great big lesson to learn from that. Sometimes God has something to say to *you,* and the message is coming in the form of not receiving that for which you prayed.
So why pray for anything, and try to tell the Universe what to do? I think, in His heart of hearts, God knows perfectly well what I would most like. It’s kind of like Byron Katie says, what’s going to happen is going to happen without any action at all by me. If I’m meant to have what I would most like, I will, and if I’m not, no amount of prayer/attempts to intend for it to happen/attempts to otherwise exert control will have any effect.
Most of the time we *do* have to accept whatever is in store for us, whether we like it or not. We’re not Jesus, who had enough faith to change water into wine. Jesus was also a lot more advanced than we are and didn’t need to learn (or “remember,” depending on how you look at it) a lot of the stuff that we do—he was a HEB, and already there! So we aren’t going to be able to do the kind of things that Jesus did. It’s kind of like that question somebody asked you about cigarette smoking one time. If Jesus had wanted to smoke and not die of lung cancer, he probably could have pulled it off. I don’t think I can, however…and I’m not stupid enough to try.
So why not just accept what happens, and get the lessons I was supposed to learn, and just do what the Universe would have me do? It’s going to be that way anyway. The only difference in it is how much I kick and scream.

Dearest Susan,
Thank you. The song was absolutely beautiful!
I cried…
just a little though.
Please have an excellent evening.
love alway

You’re welcome, understand.
And NEALE… Neale, I hope you read this. If not I am going to post it again on your next blog so you don’t miss it! I just watched the most awesome documentary (rented from Blockbuster) called “Whaledreamers”. Wow. yeah, Wow. This is so in synch with what we’ve been discussing here and what is happening in the world.
I have to share a little story. Talking about “Change”, a couple of years ago my husband and I decided to pack up our family and move out to the Oregon coast where we knew nobody but were drawn to it. There were changes in other areas of life to, including our traditional beliefs. But as we took a leap into the unknown, we found that it was exciting and freeing.
One day, we took the kids to the rocky shores to enjoy the breathtaking beauty (the oregon coast was just voted one of the top 10 places to see before you die). As we stood high on the cliff we called out to the sea, “Hello whale, come see us, we love you!” We did this simply because of the pure love and connection we felt for nature at that point. Later we walked down to a rocky shore surrounded by the sea. We were excited because there were Sea Lions swimming around and barking at us. Then suddenly we heard a loud noise behind us and we turned around just in time to see the spout of a whale not 10 feet away from us. We were awestruck! The whale swam around eyeing us for a time… seeming to be as interested in us as we were in it. We believed that it was not just a coincidence but a very significant and blessed event. That isn’t something that happens everyday (but I just might go back out and see….)
Now this movie, I stumbled upon it and the message of the whales resonates. I know you said the other day that “Dolphins don’t even act this way” (walmart). So I felt compelled to tell you about this movie. Its just another piece of the puzzle for me, as your books have been. I hope you get to see it and I hope to see you in Medford! Love, Susan

StormyMusic:
Many of us struggle with the same question — how to commit to action to make the world better without being able to see the result of our efforts? It is like the famous story of Sisyphus, endlessly pushing the same boulder up the same mountain. There will always be room in the world for improvement, always be work for committed people to do.
What helped me to maintain a commitment to action was letting go of the results to a degree, or rather, letting go of the ego satisfaction that I thought I needed from seeing the results for myself. So, I volunteered with an organization working on environmental issues. I did some fundraising, I worked in their library, I did what I could. The immediate results had nothing to do with the environment, directly. I was able to help a younger person learn about fundraising. I shared lovely potluck meals with other volunteers. I made sure I left the fundraising files in good shape for the next person. These are results that make the world a little better, a little more loving.
Was I able to see that my fundraiser saved a section of forest? No way. It was a small amount of money that helped keep the organization afloat a few months longer. And the organization was able to do other work, publish a newsletter that reached out to people, run a seminar teaching young activists how to organize a media campaign, etc. And maybe those efforts helped in a small way to raise public awareness. I don’t get to take credit, it’s not my individual actions that produced the result, it’s my actions plus all the other seemingly insignificant actions of millions of other people working for change.
It has also helped me to take a longer historical view. Things have changed due to the efforts of ordinary people like me, like you. Women vote, slavery is illegal, apartheid was overturned, etc etc. If everyone back then had said ‘what’s the point of my little action, where do I see the result?’ then we might still be where we were 100 years ago.
best wishes

O.k.
This morning it made cry alot! hahaha..
shaking head happily…
Time to continue pulling the boat home.
love

“The more things change the more they stay the same”

Dear Neale – thank you for this article on change. It seems like I’ve been in a state of continual change – mostly unwanted change – since my son was murdered in January, 2005.
I also know that his murder brought out issues that were in me prior to his death – but became more obvious afterwards. For me I know it’s a time of acceptance – but it’s hard; it’s a time of forgiveness – to forgive the 2 people who killed him, forgive myself for not being the mother I should have been – I sent him to live with his dad in Colorado when he was 13 to keep him out of trouble – or so I thought – it’s a time realize that my 35 yr old daughter may never love me like I want her to and that my grandchildren are growing up and are not the babies they were = especially my daughter’s daughter who lived with me almost constantly.
It’s a time of trying to find out my divine purpose – after being reared in an abusive home; suffering from child abuse, abusive relationships, being delivered from abusive substances and now having my son murdered – I just can’t believe the good Lord has allowed me to go through all this without it being a help to someone else.
I also know that I’ve started questioning whether I believe everything I’ve been taught in my religion – even though they saw it’s New Thought – having lost a child makes one realize that it’s not the Gold and Silver that count – it’s God; it’s relationships. I pray and pray everyday for God to show me His divine purpose for my life – I guess when He’s ready He’ll let me know.
Once again – thank you for this article on change – I wish I could be at your seminar – I know it will be wonderful. I saw you one time in the 1990′s at Christ Universal Temple in Chicago and I knew you were a Spirit-filled and loving soul.
God Bless you – Cherlyn

After watching today’s Special News Report – I am elated – a wonderful CHANGE is taking place. Don’t you feel it too?…how can you not?…A new person is working with the best intentions for our country. He is crossing bi-partisan lines and different political views for the betterment of all Americans. How can you moan, and gripe and whine and stay in the doldrums we have all been in since 9/11? Pay attention to what is going on around you. Be good to yourself and your neighbors. That’s all you have to do. That is how it starts. If you have feelings of hate, jealousy and envy – hold your tongue, and think – your feelings are a mirror to yourself. Yes, there are people out of work, homes have been lost – it is not a good time – I am hopeful it will not last much longer – this was supposed to happen. Don’t you see it?… What can you do to help?…donate, volunteer, give the best that you can. That’s all. This is how God works in/through us. We have asked for it – and the prayers/intentions have been answered.

Dearest Drew,
Asking gently, have a little hope… please?
(gentle smile)
Sometimes, the best things to happen take a small season in life, (two years in a lifetime is a small bit of time in the drop of life) filled with a steady pace of continual effort that goes beyond any effort ever placed before.
Good thoughts for you sent from me.
love

Thanks Rach. Cynthia, I really appreciate your message.
It seems that I’ve been kinda fighting the “doldrums” the last few days. I brighten up sometimes when I read about Obama or see the snow outside. It is probably a combination of SAD and being hormonal.
I know my parents and friends must wonder as I choose to spend time alone rather than talk. Maybe it’s because I’m less involved this year with charity. I rang for Salvation Army last year, but I was so overwhelmed I didn’t sign up. Perhaps I’ll go with Mom a few times and sing so she won’t have to ring the bell. Last year, people would stop and look around me. I’d finish, and they’d be like “Was that you? I thought you had a radio out here.” Then they’d put in $5-$10 and walk on as I thanked them. Other times, they would pet the dog and then just “have” to donate. I was just too overwhelmed when it was time to sign up.
Maybe it’s just time to start baking again, something I missed out on last year because I was so busy with charities and preparing for a cantata. There were years when I would back about 12 different kinds of cookies and give them as gifts. It seems a bit daunting this year, but maybe I’ll feel better if I do it. I’ll miss the solstice gathering since they changed the day this year, and that was always refreshing. I might do Christmas cards again this year since I was not home enough last year to even start them.
Sorry to go on and on. I’m usually ok, but sometimes it’s just obvious that I have a bit of the winter doldrums settling in. I’ve been extremely sleepy lately as well, or I’ve just wanted to sit and play computer games rather than talk with people or socialize with the family. It’s time to refocus or something. So, no wonder I feel global change to be a bit overwhelming.

StormyMusic – it seems to me that you are in a state of introspection, nothing wrong with that. We all coccoon sometimes. What is wrong with that?….Be good to yourself first, do what you have to do. How can you give your best, if you are not AT your best?
Simple. Blessings to you and all my Classmates.

Thanks Cynthia;
I have a little more understanding about what might be going on. There is a planetary alignment of Venus, Jupiter and the moon. That can really play havoc on people. I did a Tarot reading as well today. I don’t usually do it, and when I do, I typically don’t take it too seriously. I figure it’s this online thing that is a bit impersonal. Something weird happened though. I ended up with
10 of fire (self)
Devil (situation)
Death (Challenges/Opportunities)
I looked at that combination, and my first thought was “Oh @#$%!” Then I read further, and it reminded me of the importance of grounding myself within rather than depending on the outside world. The devil card shows that I could either choose to react emotionally to situations (getting deep into depression) or to embrace the feelings I am having. The death card was interpreted as an importance of accepting the changes happening within me in the cycle of death and rebirth.
I added the three together and was like…whoa. Even a computer Tarot thing seemed to “nail it” in regard to change and where I am right now.

Neale, could you possibly post some of your new book on Changes on your blog so that we could benefit from it now when we really need it? Many of us are unable for one reason or another to make it to one of your new seminars and it would be a great help to us going through these changes to hear your new information. Please consider this – thanks and love.

Hey Neale and everyone,
I will be at the event. I am very excited as I have definitely gone through a lot of changes recently. So, I look forward to a compelling event.
Also, StormyMusic, I don’t know if you have gone to http://www.nealedonaldwalsch.com and signed up for the free resources there, but in those resources is a “10 Ways to Change the World” informational PDF file, free to download. I’ve read some of it and it is quite interesting and makes a lot of sense. I hope that helps.
Cameron

StormyMusic – I like to read tarot as well -
Your cards do show -
1. carrying too much, heavy burdens, 10s are completion so its time to finish it up and start delegating.
2. escape the bondage of the earth (well there you go) coccoon.
3. feeling sad, empty and low – yep, but also a time of change – the Phoenix card, rebirth.
So it seems you’re doing what you are supposed to be doing right now.
I wouldn’t fight it….

My life has been in turmoil and change for 8 years, and for a long time I wondered, where on earth is the firm ground to stand on? I’m over 50, not a spring chicken. It’s getting kind of wearisome.
Some of the change has been my “fault,” meaning a pretty direct result of the choices I made myself. But the choices, I believe, were largely directed by outside circumstance. I didn’t ask for enormous moral dilemmas. When presented the choice of whether to do what I felt was right and suffer consequences, or “go along” and risk succumbing to unethical matters… I chose to stand for what I believed in and understood to be correct. My life has never been the same since. It’s been a somewhat unending series of changes and adjustment.
In time, I’ve discovered that most of my choices bore out benefits to others. Certainly the biggest ones did. My sense of what was morally right, ethically right, was affirmed by the results – things in the big picture for a good many people turned out better because I took a stand. So my own suffering, for better or worse, seems to have proven useful. Hey that is truly great.
But gee, I also wonder sometimes where is the firm ground for me? I’m tired, and I have needs. Can a person just go through change after change after change after change…
Embrace change? Sure, ok. Can’t there be some balance, too?
Maybe I’ll discover, eventually, that I don’t need what I thought. That I don’t need some stability, some time to process it all, some R&R. Maybe I’ll find that I don’t need to be rejuvenated, that I’m fine just as I am. That stability is just an illusion, and wishing for it is unnecessary indulgence arising out of a lack of confidence, or a lack of faith. Quit complaining. Relax and just go with the flow.
Or, horror of horrors, what if I find that all this change has actually done damage, that it alters me in ways I no longer have harmony and control with? I don’t know. I really don’t know.
A while back I’d read an astrological forecast of this period, these years we’re living now. That this would be a period of great change and shift – not just for us individually but for the whole world and for the planet. When we read the news these days it’s hard not to believe that it might well be.
And if that’s the case, it’s bigger than any of us. Then what else can we do but hang on… contribute what we can, try always to do what we believe is right… and if we’re able, enjoy the ride?

MJinba, it sounds to me like you’ve been through a lot and it seems as though you are going nowhere. There’s no way that’s possible in my opinion. All roads lead home. I think if you are going through damaging events even those will serve to motivate your growth. I have gone through some terrible times recently, very damaging, very, but at the same time they have given me a way to inner peace. They have set me on a path toward enlightenment with no way back, the pain is too great.
So, I would say hang in there and try to enjoy it like you said. So many masters say that accepting your situation is very important so that you don’t add additional stress on top of what you’re already going through. I hope this helps.

Dear Mjinba,
Three years ago I laid down in my bed one night, after putting my son to sleep. And I thought to myself ‘God, is this it? Is this really what you had planned for me? I can’t believe that after everything I have been through, it ends this way. With me simply existing everyday, feeling so completely alone. Is this really it?”
My heart was so sad…
That night, like many nights before, I entered a meditation, only this time it was different. I felt like what many call Christ (I do), God, or something larger than myself, laid down beside me. He took his finger and it seemed like he was zipping up a cocoon of pure light surrounding us. Just me and him, in our cocoon, blocking out the world, and what I realize now was the feeling of a new one was instilled in me in that moment., 2 weeks later my life was literally turned upside down, and all the changes and challenges that I had endured before seemed like small potatoes! For the next three years everything was purely change. Hard change. Yet everything that was happening was turning me around to really undue all of the stuff the world told me that I was, but I really wasn’t. During the hardest changes and challenges I really found simply me. And it was totally different than what I was raised to believe…
As the challenges increased I found something else in me that I knew existed, but really didn’t know because I hadn’t experienced it. I found my strength. I found what I was capable of. I found that the harder the challenge, the more I knew what was right for me, and the more in me I had to really do and state my truth. I am now on the last leg of this climb. Literally. Everything has changed, and I’m ready for the next chapter of what I’ve been working towards all of my life. Sometimes blindly and not really knowing accept for a feeling inside of me, sometimes slowly, sometimes a complete halt, sometimes 2 steps forward and 1 step back until I can keep the stride of two paces forward because of how much I have grown, sometimes so quickly that I’m left shocked at what just happened! But it always, always balances itself for my understanding, my well being, my maturity, and my overall happiness.
On the days when sadness just overwhelms you, dive in. Dive into something that you know is good for you, even if your heart isn’t in it at the time. Find that simply the movement of doing it, that moment of creation you are going through, is precious, a special moment, even if there is no one to share it with accept for God. Love the moment, and let the love build through you. It’s there, and it is the process of learning to love yourself. How much you do matter. How much those little dreams inside of you that quietly speak, are yours and they are perfect just they way they are. Fall in love with yourself, and allow yourself to fall in love. There are going to be times through the healing that your scared of that floor falling through. But personally knowing, through the challenges I have learned I can handle anything. That I can walk line. Yet what I have dreamt of is not having too. And when it comes, when the floor no longer falls, learn to accept it because you are that loved. And thats when the next part of your life can come…
A good movie, at least for me, is “Under the Tuscan Sun”. I watched it three days ago. Since, there have been lady bugs in my house! hahaha… And there weren’t lady bugs before. I would have noticed.lol…
Keep that chin up.
Love always

My song of the day…
Looking very forward to the completion of the next 2 years…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vshlrz2B63o
love

Mjinba,
“Or, horror of horrors, what if I find that all this change has actually done damage, that it alters me in ways I no longer have harmony and control with? I don’t know. I really don’t know.”
Then you’ll change again in order to regain the balance, the sense of harmony you had experienced.
Life is not static. Even when one tries to make it so, simple interactions can bring change. It’s our free will and the free will of others intersecting that makes change.
If you can find some peace in a five minute breather – that’s one step to seeing yourself through whatever is causing the imbalance.
Hang in there. Change can be positive – growth, new experiences, new people to bring you forward. Even in the darkest of times, there is Light.
Peace

Cameron, thanks for your insight and the reassurance, “All roads lead home.” I believe that too, and it was good to be reminded and to feel that belief affirmed through the words of someone else. I also feel the inner peace you found, and the strength mentioned by “I Understand.” It’s remarkable what we can discover, isn’t it. Acceptance is the only way that’s sane, when things are happening beyond our control.
“I Understand,” what a remarkable, holy, and healing experience you had! Thanks so much for writing about it, and letting me and the rest of us reading here know about it. And what a blessing of preparation, as it turned out, for the challenges and changes that followed for you. It was inspiring to read. I’ll look for “Under the Tuscan Sun” – I like movies and it sounds like this one will be good to watch just now. Good luck to you over the next couple of years especially. And thanks.
Thanks, too, “speaks from the heart.” What kindness you have. Peace isn’t lacking for me, thank heavens, but I do wonder when and how all this change and disruption will settle out and give me some rest. No rest for the wicked, they say, so I guess it’ll be a while (!!).
I don’t know if I’ll ever regain the sense of balance I had before. Not saying I won’t, just that to be honest I don’t know. Maybe it’ll be a new sort of balance, maybe the old familiar sort, or maybe balance won’t come again for a long, long time… I think the only choice is to keep the eyes open and look towards what ever is coming. Sort of like driving a car – However it came about, you’re on the road and you’d better pay attention while you’re moving. That’s what I’m doing right now – paying attention. Because everything is still moving.
All three of you, thanks so much for your thoughts, your own experiences, and your kindness.

MJinba,
Maybe it will be a different balance, but no less a balance. As I move forward – past the stagnancy of my childhood demons – past the experiences that didn’t work out the way I thought they would/should – past the self-abuse in my mind – I have come to realize while there was a balance during the past decades, it isn’t the kind of balance I would want now, where I am now. Perhaps it will be for you too.
My best to you.

Say a prayer! I am…
I kicked back pretty hard at this one. The appraiser will be here any minute, and the house looks fantastic.
love always
op… he’s here! lol