I’ve been reading prayers, quotes, messages, and stories from this site religiously, since my son was killed, January 10, 2010. He was only twenty-two years old at the time of his murder, and I continue to grieve for him daily. Sometimes, I read things that are sent to my emails from this site, and think they’re special messages that God wants me to have. I have always been a believer in God’s word, only I knew very little before that night. On the night my son died, I met God for the first time. I felt His presence so strongly. From that moment on, I have stuck by Him, through sadness, anger, confusion, and pain. I speak to Him now as if we are having coffee together. When I shouted out to Him for comfort, I literally felt as though someone was holding me in their arms. I can’t say why God chose my son so soon, and before me. I only know that He had His reasons, and I trust Him. My life had grown closer to Him through faith, but I still hurt so much. I know that my pain would ease up, if I was ready to give it to Him completely. For now, I’m not ready to let that part go. I can’t explain why, but I’m sure God knows the answer to that, and He’s still here, waiting. I’m scared to stop hurting, for so many reasons, but why, I can’t be exactly sure. There were times, in the beginning, that Satan tried hard to take me. I just wanted my life over! After careful planning to do this, I broke down and wept as my insides felt this overwhelming since of betrayal. Betrayal to God. It was at that very moment that I asked God to place a shield of protection over me and my family, so that Satan could not touch us. God has done just that. My life is still pretty messed up, but I’m still here, and that speaks volume to me about what God does for us. I just want our family to find some happiness again. I’ve been so selfish, not asking God to remove this pain, just so we can get some of our life back again. I ask that you pray for my family to somehow find this happiness. I feel too guilty, betraying my son who’s gone, asking for this. I know that God allows others to assist us in times when we are in need. I can’t imagine a greater need than this in our family. Maybe I’m going about this the wrong way, but my heart still aches, and yet I can’t let go, and my family needs this.
God knows all that we are going through, He knows my feelings. In my heart I believe that I need someone to assist me in this prayer, not because He won’t hear me, but I’m too scared to make that choice just yet. Thank you for the site. It’s truly been an aid in my healing during so many days. Kim

I pray for you at this terriable time in life that God gives you the strength to moe foward… You are a inspiration to so many & may GOd truely bless you…. as I as you to pray for me & my family as well… Life sometimes is hard to understand but knowing God is beside us makes it woth the strive…….hugs & prays for you & all that have lost a child it is the worst place to be in life.

God Bless you and your family, trust in the Lord with all your heart. He is your shield and your strength at all moments; the Lord will always guide, protect and love you and your family. The Lord will grant you and your family joyful and beautiful things that only those immersed in the love of God will experience. Persevere, don’t let go, our Lord has a purpose.

God bless you and continue to develop your relation with our Lord and God.

Below is a nice prayer that works for me:

The Serenity Prayer
God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.
Amen.

Amen

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Kim –
I know why you are holding on to your pain. It was explained during my brohter’s eulogy. We hold on to the pain because we are scared if we let it go, we are letting go of our loved one. We feel like we are being disloyal letting go of that pain. At first the pain comforts us. It assures us and everyone around of how much we love the one we lost. But eventually we need to realize that letting go of the pain does not dishonor our loved one, nor does it make us forget them. I found that each time I grieve for my brother (which I still do 16 years after his death) I work to remember a joyful time with him. Or I do something to help others in his name. My brother was such a joy and a delight to be around. I try to be a representative of that joy, so that others know how much I love him through my smiles, not my tears. I promise you, this helps. It takes diligence and discipline. But now I love telling people of my very beloved brother, and they can see his joy and laughter and complete love of life. I pray this helps you somewhat.

My heart goes out to this child and his family. I cannot help but get teary eyed here. I believe going through a difficult time could be a little bit easier if you share it with somebody else who are going through the same thing. I thought I’d share http://www.deathletters.org as it might help to know there are other people who are going through the death of a loved one.

My children lost their 16 yr old friend in a car accident yesterday morning. Such a difficult time, I cannot comprehend how her parents will go on. Prayers to her family and those who mourn her loss. Mariah Lloyd, you’ll never be forgotten.

To my sister Christina..losing 2 children last march My family is forever changed..angels watch over 2..love Auntie